S: Our Suffering

Mend me, Break me

Mistaken me for what I believed,

was what truly seemed

Trusting, Rebuffering

Known suffering

How long will this last?

Insure me, A breather

Somehow my grave keeps digging deeper

Past six feet under

I look down at our borderline

So what am I to you?

A mistake? An excuse?

The real deal? The amusement for your lies.

I’m here at the borderline

No farther, no closer is fine

How much longer?

Because my heart won’t last.

Deciding, after this whole time

Reminding of the old time

Question, how divine?

Trust me! When I say I’m not fine.

After all of this, how do you-

expect the route to become smooth when

we can’t even communicate through this?

What is it that bothers you?

What have I done?

Is there something I can do?

Are there issues unspoken?

On the inside I have you, and part of your heart

But the same goes for you, it’s what keeps up from being apart

But how many times do we

Have to bicker and walk away

With my anger, and your secrets

How are we, supposed to be…

Expecting to get better

Because this isn’t what’s the matter

Not that we don’t know that there’s something wrong

But our pride together!

After taking, one deep breath

Tears staining my cheeks

I can say, that sadly, I won’t say this to you

Because you told me to never say it

But the truth is

I’m still

In love with you,

But it’s not only that

How can we attract

When you refuse to interact with me

Not telling me the truth doesn’t only hurt me

It hurts you, and now we’re both suffering. 

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Written May 20th, 2015

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