S: Only Myself

S - Single. Does not belong to a specific poetry book. 
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It isn’t you I understand

It’s all me and that much makes sense

Because it always is

No matter the situation

These tears, aren’t for you

They’re for my foolishness

And for what I thought through

How could I ever be, so stupid?

Chorus:

It doesn’t makes sense, oh no- not this right now

Because I’m so confused

Who am I to blame?

I blame myself, but then- whose fault is it

I don’t’ know

Sighing I look out in the distance

And I wonder, does anyone understand me

What am I doing? Am I looking for something more?

Sitting down alone I realize that this time scare me quite a bit

I’m nervous, slightly

Chorus

It doesn’t make sense, oh no- not this- oh not now

Because meanings seem to blend together, what happened

I try not to lose myself because the person I hold onto is myself and right now my own confidence has faded

What am I to do? It makes me wonder

What have I been through? I ask myself

Is there anything worse than this?

Waking up, I realize that things are different

I don’t feel the same

Don’t tell me that

I already choose the wrong decision

Who is there to blame?

I’ll blame myself and no one else

And yet it still doesn’t make sense

It’s not that I’m not trying to make this not ‘0make sense’

All I want, is for someone to tell me

What’s going on

Oh I don’t know

Right now I want to comprehend why thing are happening

But obviously, that’s not working

I feel so riled up to the top

Would someone help me?

Oh stranger, would you please

Afraid, a foe,

Either way, I won’t mind you at all

Help me

I’m desperate here

And I’m still baffled by the things people put me through

So who Is the blame

I don’t know

I’ll blame myself.

Chorus

But does it have to make sense?

That’s the question

Let me blame the only culprit

Trapped behind a mirror

Myself

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Written December 24th, 2015 - Found in my Google Drive
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