S: In Hopes

What am I supposed to do

When I think about you

My heart says

Let it be

Although the time is not the best

Everything towards my happiness says "Go"

And even though I care so much I don't know how I bluff these insecurities

My love for another

Lost in the words of the wind

However

The heart that I had for them

Still exist but now I know

That I can love another

Somehow I care for the person that I loved

And it's been since them

Recently for me to love

Impossible it is for me

To completely let go

But when I see you

I somehow know

That there's something else that I can do

To fall in love again

It may take some time with them

Because it'll take some time for me

All I want to do is love you like I would with a full heart

It's harder though to become one with a new soul

You care so much about what other people think

Here I am turning my back to these people's need

We're different but in the same way- we can provide what the other cannot say

We are not alike but we understand

At least you know I care

But you don't know how much I bear

Within me

I keep my secrets

My barriers

That I'd let you see

If it didn't involve me

Bursting into tears

I hope you understand

I care

And I know you want to as well

I'll let you get yourself together

While I'm putting my broken prices in an orderly fashion

There's nothing else I can do

It's all I have

And I hope you

Can love me too

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Written on September 18th, 2015

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