When I think of you I can't help but feel that I'm not much
Though you love me, show me, adore me
My heart still aches thinking such
For in my eyes there's imperfection
Not that I want to be perfect
What I strive for ensures that I am strong
And yet my heart continues to ache
These tears I cry are because I know that the pain is real
I know that you'd tell me that you don't feel this way
Even then, it doesn't matter because this is the way I feel
How I feel is lower than less
To me, the world is better off without
This life of mine, no doubt.
Despite the love I know is there
Above all else, I come home to eyes that widen and think
"You're home!"
No matter what I do, my heart will return here
To the place containing all all my agony
A place that makes the last breath seem so pleasing
Aware, I am of love surrounding me
Through others, they feel the love I have for them
These don't stop me from lacking love for myself.
Depend, something I do on everyone else
They prove to me that I'm worth the next breath
Silent, are my tears
Another day has passed
At least,
I think that's what I'm supposed to hope.
Home To An Imagination
Saturday, April 21, 2018
Friday, April 20, 2018
B: Opposing Umbrage: A Made Decision
An unborn conscious
Rest at peace
Not dead but alive is this piece
With moves strong
Does a developed interest seek
One drink? Only once? For me?
Has no one seen what affects their minds?
With their decisions, so divine?
--
Original
"A Mother" - Charles Lee Taylor
Written February 3rd/4th 2015
20 - 100
Rest at peace
Not dead but alive is this piece
With moves strong
Does a developed interest seek
One drink? Only once? For me?
Has no one seen what affects their minds?
With their decisions, so divine?
--
Original
"A Mother" - Charles Lee Taylor
Written February 3rd/4th 2015
20 - 100
Thursday, April 19, 2018
B: Opposing Umbrage: No Power To The Nameless
Better tell the truth
Lies will expose
The worth of one's strange habits
Beholder speak! Say thy name
Or shall no 'good' last in vain?
Nor can purity flow through thy veins
'Truth teller' of seekers
Withhold no name
Written February 5th, 2015
19 - 100
Lies will expose
The worth of one's strange habits
Beholder speak! Say thy name
Or shall no 'good' last in vain?
Nor can purity flow through thy veins
'Truth teller' of seekers
Withhold no name
--
Original - Based on "A superior man" by Charles Lee Taylor
Written February 5th, 2015
19 - 100
Wednesday, April 18, 2018
B: Regaining Strength: A Craving and Resistance
Stronger I become
The harder it is
To resist the urge to fall
No blood has splattered
Upon these wrist
Years it has been
And hasn’t been done
My heart pounds
It aches, yearning for me to make my mistake
Away, I turn from every blade
A sense of insecurity in the touch
Turning away, my back to face
Anything that may seem sharp
Despite the cleansing
The memory isn’t lost.
For now I stand above
What I used to be
Easier to let the feelings go numb
Yet here I stand, feeling weak
A poison I’ll never fully
Be cured of because
If I forget who I was
Then how will I know who I become?
Walk away
I hear myself say
A hand touches my side
I turn, the beholder is someone I love
A friend, a lover,
To my surprise a stranger
Anyone can smile and stop me from returning
To the path that I once thought
Was the only one.
-Written 3.28.19
18 - 100
Tuesday, April 17, 2018
B: Regaining Strength: Awaiting Resolution
What is it with your eyes?
It’s as if you haunt me
An unintentional possession through my dream
Simply a smile,
One we both know
An embrace, we've shared
Then turned away
Here I am, years later
Thinking of you, and yet
Admit, I have, because my heart told me
There was no need to not speak my mind
And yet you've known for years
Keeping your opinion to yourself
Putting a mask in front of others
Then seeing me and showing with no doubt
To me, I am symbol
One that you and others know
A heart spoken conversation
Always awaits me
In your own words you lie to yourself
Saying that it doesn’t matter
Knowing that it does
But hearing yourself say so for so long
Makes you think that ‘you know’.
If anything is clear
It’s that you know how I feel
Deep down no matter what we do
What connection we have, is real
A broad street to one another
It’s as if we both turn away
For years I turned down the path and now
I’m not here to say
Years from now we’ll face each other
And we’ll both know of our hidden motives
When the time comes, who will break down
Will I?
Or will you, first?
You ignore it, knowing that I will always be there
And I try to move past it, thinking one day I will
That doesn’t mean that our connection isn’t there
We feel ‘together’ and it hurts
Every mask you put on, you wonder
How do I do what I do
The honesty, the easiness
It confuses you
How can I be so honest with myself? With others?
And here, you look twice in the mirror on some days
Not that you’ll hear me, but at least you’ll know
The answer lies within myself
And a bad memory.
What’s the point in making up a story for me to live by
When I can write it without erasing?
Since it’s not a lie, I don’t have to remember
Because it is all I know
Want to know what else I know?
We will cross paths again
And this time, you’ll be the one stopping me
Wanting me to speak to you but speaking first
And I’ll listen, like I always do
Hopefully, that’ll be the day
That you’re honest with yourself
When you stop ignoring what’s there
You’ll apologize and I’ll stare.
My heart will flip
And then rage
Frustration
Aggravation
I’ll turn to you
And tell you,
That I’ve always known there was something
And I know that you know too
What I rather have happened
Would have been
An early resolution
But I know that time is not an enemy
Even if it may seem so
The day will come and it’ll be more revolutionary for you
And I’ll be able live without thinking twice about you.
-
Written on March 28th, 2018
Monday, April 16, 2018
B: Opposing Umbrage: Silent Gift
Weary may I not be
To fall in the hands of work
Worried, my friends shall see
A payable price, may the hours reap
Healthy, not the exact word
But a heart of caring I will learn
Provided by the birth given
By my mother, not taken
A strength in silence,
A strength in worlds
Innocence is bliss
Unless the voices are heard
Quiet may one be
But silence is strength
A power of thee
Unknown to existence
Solid as a whole
A gift given through perception
This gift given through the soul
--
Original Based on "A Dog's Life" - Charles Lee Taylor
Written on February 5th, 2015
16 - 100
Sunday, April 15, 2018
S: Sing, Dear
I don’t even
Consider
This time
What are we to do
There’s lighting in the sky
Yet we’re here
Right now
Smiling
Because we know how
To make fun
Out of boring
Are you boring?
I hope not
Sing to me
I know the rain is falling
But,
Sing to me,
Anyway!
I don’t care what genre
Give me something, anything
Listen here to Madonna
Three Days Grace, or Linkin Park
Play a tune
I’d love to hear your amazing voice
Sing to me here
Under the cloudy sky
I’ve heard of ACDC, Kid Cudi, Lil Wayne
Anything at this moment
I’d be okay
Because right now all I hear is thunder in the clouds
Sing to me
I know that the rain is falling. Although,
If you sing to me we could possibly fall in love
There’s the band called Westlife
I know it cause I’ve heard.
Epica and Nirvana, Boys Like Girls are bands too so I’ve heard.
Sing to me about the blues skies
Sing to me about anything
All I want is to hear you amazing voice
Sing to me
My dear.
--
Written 12.23.2014
15 -100
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